the love

i think im going crazy, because in thinking of it too many times in an hour. the cutes boy I've ever seen, if wkwkwkwk in falling in love with him I think he's cute, but not really now hehehe. I meet him at school, every 5 days a week, 8 hours a day, maybe more, and it happened almost two years. I would go with him extracuriculer same practice every Tuesday and Friday. surelly, I want to lose these feelings, but in other hand I did not want to lose this, it feels like to jump and i want my adrenalint come when I meet him or saw him. He is not nice, I think he just my friend who had a beautiful smile and a friendly person. I knew I had no hope, I did not want to love me too, because the fear when it happens, our friendship was lost. I just want him around him in that you know, when I tell him that I loved him i dont know, what happened, that in my brain? I did not like a girl to tell her, crush her feelings, I hate it, but now id do it! oh my god! id tried to forget him, but when I try, I cannot. It often happens, the more I liked him, the harder I tried to forget him. honestly, I've missed so him, I miss his tan skin, his madness, his sweet smile, everything about him!